well. it's january.
which means we're all trying to lose a little weight. or is it just me and y'all are eating cupcakes while watching the golden globes tonight? you better be suffering with me, girlfrans.
i never really knew my weight growing up. i just never weighed myself, didn't care, and didn't pay attention at physicals, i guess. i was never the skinny girl. and that didn't, and doesn't, bother me. i've always been a confident girl though. not because i think i'm hot stuff but, because i know that God made me in His image, and my worth is in Him, and not what any one else thinks. i have a husband who makes me feel the most beautiful woman in the world… even at my ugliest, physically and emotionally. so, now, when times like this happen and i know i need to lose some poundage, it usually boils down to me going back and forth with myself saying, geez! i need to lose some of this weight! can i still even call this baby weight? and eh, it isn't that bad, and i really love food, so whatev.
these past five years, of course, i have known my weight very well, having been pregnant three times. i am happy, and proud, to say that right now i weigh twenty pounds less than i did right after i had story girl. but i've still got a way to go. i'm not gonna go crazy here, people. could i afford to lose forty pounds? uh. probably. but let's be real here and go with twenty. not looking to labeled thin, just looking to get a little healthier.
yes. my pregnant belly is no joke.
and here's the only other time i knew my, roundabout, weight. cause it's the day before our wedding and i had tried to lose a little. and then probably gained ten pounds on our honeymoon. whatev.
(hi, di! your wedding day is next! love you.)
this picture is blurry, but i love it, so much. my pastor who dedicated me, baptized me, married me, and now has dedicated all three of my children, praying over caleb and i the night before our wedding. i've got my husband-to-be on my right, one of my best friends on my left, caleb's brother jason laying his hand on caleb, praying over us, and my sweet little flower girl cousin. i love the way that caleb is peeking at me.
annnnnd i was twenty pounds thinner here. so i'll add that to things i love about this picture, too.
so i am making this my goal weight. it seems fitting.
i still have that little black dress. i won't put it on and take a picture. DON'T WORRY.
my crazyawesome girlfriends and i decided to do this thing together, and motivate, or sabotage?, each other for six weeks and see who could lose the most weight. and then we named it, shared about it on instagram, and got a whole slew of other precious ladies in on it…. i give you…
follow along with me on instagram! and with our hashtag, #alittletoofluffy. these ladies are legit.
so thirty-six of us are playing, for five more weeks, to see who can lose the most percentage of weight and win the big bucks: $360.
this first week has been kind of crazy. i am in a better state of mind right now, but to let you get a good grip on how i feel… here is a little text collage from conversations with friends this past week. names removed to protect their privacy. what? bloggers are all about privacy.
so. ya. twenty pounds might be harder than i thought.
if i eat one more bite of egg white and spinach i may throw up a little.
but, i'm in this, friends.
six weeks. hold me to it.