on july 1st i got to witness my big sister, meghan, become a mom. to say it was an amazing experience would be an understatement. i believe that my calling in life is to be a midwife. why did i go to school for business and early childhood education? i am meant to catch babies. anyone who reads this and is pregnant: please let me convince you that i need to be your doula. thank you.
having experienced childbirth au natural three times myself, i talked my sister into letting me be there when she went in to labor and delivered her sweet first born. i convinced her by saying things like i will just sit there in the corner and not even look at you if you get uncomfortable with me being there, and you know, i'm the only one that knows the pressure points that will help relieve the pain. and she was sold. i mean...who wouldn't be? you know you want me there, too. i even convinced her to watch the business of being born. some may say that i am sort of sickly obsessed with childbirth. i get crazy excited when i start to feel the pain of contractions. don't get me wrong.. hands down the most horrendous pain i've ever felt in my life. but also? the most amazing thing i have experienced in life thus far. i will probably end up with more children than the duggars, only to experience child birth one.more.time. i'm kidding. kindasortanotreally.
isla's first moments
she went into her labor with an open mind. the best way to go into labor in my opinion. i feel like: if you need drugs, you need drugs. if the pain swallows you alive, it swallows you alive. if you have a natural childbirth, you have a natural childbirth. if you have a c-section, you have a c-section. to each her own. no one's birth story trumps anyone elses. your birth story is amazing and sacred and yours… no matter how you did it. having this be her first baby no one really knew what to expect, how she would labor, or handle the pain. well folks… she handled the pain. she blew me out of the water with surrendering to pain. that was my mantra to her the whole time as i was pushing on her lower back surrender to the pain! don't fight it! you got this! i am a firm believer in surrendering to the pain. can ya tell?
me and the sister cousins
as the end of her labored neared, my mom and i took turns wiping her face with the cold clothes, pushing her hair out of her face (mom, remember the time you almost ripped her nose ring out of her nose? HA!), and giving her sips of the to-die-for icy water. soon it came time to push. my brother-in-law and mom tend to be a tad squeamish, but not i. they positioned themselves up a little higher, while i grabbed a leg. HELLO. birth tv shows and movies have got nothing on being there, holding your sister's leg, and watching your niece be born. meg, being the champ she is, pushed for almost an hour and then, no holds barred, got that girl out. she beat my first time pushing time by leaps and bounds. hi, i pushed two and half hours, had an episiotomy, and then gave birth to a toddler who needed respiratory therapy immediately.
she likes to nap on my legs. what can i say?
and all of the sudden my sweet baby niece was there. as steve, my mom, and i burst into tears and did a victory dance, the midwife and nurses exclaimed, take your baby, meghan! she's here! you did it! meghan did the EXACT same thing i did with all my babies. the out of body experience had just come to a head, literally. she laid back and limply held her daughter, and said hi baby! over and over again, all while pondering what in the world just happened in her life.
and in that moment i felt overwhelmed with the love i have for my sister, my new niece, and my family. i was so proud of her. we haven't walked many similar paths in life, meghan and i, but now here we are. having both experienced one of the greatest blessings and amazing experiences that this life has to offer.
i mean… can you even handle the love?
my precious niece is so beautiful and all sorts of wonderful. one of the best parts of all of this is that isla and story are only four months apart. they will be besties. oh they will fight like cats and dogs, i'm sure of it. but their moms will force them to love each other through it all. and i can't forget the most important detail: i cut the umbilical cord. isla is forever tied to her crazy aunt danielle.. whether she likes it or not.
i got to take some pictures of my sweet niece the other day.
warning: your ovaries will start aching in…
welcome to the world, isla! you are so loved.