the time has come, (and really, come and gone) for most families with kids brody's age, to make the big schooling decision. he turned four in april and most of his friends have been in pre school since three. he's been home with me as i hem and haw over which road to take with his education in these next few years. we've been playing a lot, and letting him be a kid.
he's a smart cookie, my brody boy. and i take little to no credit for it. he has a memory like no one i have ever met. the other day he told me, in detail, about the old red car we used to have, aka the car we got rid of when he was 18 months old. um yah. i tell him something one time and he has it memorized. he points out octagons and parallelograms right and left and i dont' even know how to spell those words.
i would have had trouble forking over a pretty penny for preschool this past year when he knew everything that he was going be taught already. don't get me wrong, i think the social interaction is fabulous, but we have lots and lots of play dates and he also is in sunday school every sunday morning. i taught pre school for a few years and i truly loved it. i think it's great and i know many wonderful programs locally. but it just wasn't what i wanted for him. or what i thought he needed right now.
i know what makes him tick, i know how his little brain works, i know his flaws and his quirks. and he has many of them. i know how he learns best, and i feel that i, his mama, can nurture and teach him best at this stage in his life. i don't know how long we'll do it for, i don't know if we'll do it with each child even, i just know that, right now, this is it for us.
it would be easier for me to send him to school in the fall. four straight hours with only two kids? oh! the things i could get done! most days i will tell you that i want what is easier for me, but in my heart, and in the long run... i don't want what's easier for me. i want what's best for them. hear me out, i can already envision myself banging my head against the wall and saying WHAT WAS I THINKING? and i am already pondering over how in the world i would teach my child to read… cause i really have no idea.
i doubt myself and my abilities to teach him what he needs to know. but then, when i'm praying about, and thinking about it, and thinking about life in general, what i really want him to know isn't what the books are teaching us after all. it's what the bible is teaching us. it's grace and it's love. it's compassion and giving. it's Jesus.
for me, there are both many positives and many negatives to public school (which i went to and loved). but, i keep coming back to the same question in my mind. am i going to send my moldable, shapeable, easily influenced, (mostly) innocent little boy to spend all day long with a person who could very well not know or love Jesus? am i going to let him be with that person more hours out of the week than with me? am i going to lose out of these fleeting moments of shaping what he believes?
don't get me wrong. homeschooling has it's positives and negatives too. this is a trial period for us. i am willing to take the risk and be the mom who wants to shelter my kid a little longer. you can smack that label on me, i'll take it! and i'll take it with pride cause we, my husband and i, feel this is what is best for him and our family right now. i have dreams of being a hippie homeschooling mom. you know the ones i'm talking about. like, sitting in a field, eating berries fresh picked from our garden (don't have a garden and my kids don't even touch berries BTDUBS), counting the dandelion dust as it blows by. BAH! i am a far, far cry from that. but a girl can wish, right?
i'm nervous and excited all wrapped into one. it feels good to start out with preschool cause, if i really screw up, at least it wasn't kindergarten. right? someone support me in that thinking, mmkay? we are all paid and signed up for a homeschool co op. it will take place every tuesday starting in september and brody will have half a day of thirty minute classes. he will be taking music, art, phonics, math, science, and gymnastics. and foster is even getting in on the action with preschool primary, music, and gymnastics too. the thought of them in gymnastics makes me a) pee myself with laughter and b) feel bad for whoever is teaching that class.
and right now, cause i like to wait til the last minute, i am researching curriculum to buy to do at home 1-2 more days a week. i love the idea of five in an row, and i was looking into sonlight as well. i would love something that is creative, and also focuses on Christ. homeschooling mamas, help a sista help! gimme your suggestions, links, ideas, anything and everything… i'll take all the help i can get.