three!

our girl is THREE months old already!

can you believe it?

time to get pregnant again! 

KIDDING.

K I D D I N G.

three months is such a good age. i mean, it's not as good as seven months but i'll take it over one month. what what. we have moved out of the screaming bloody murder stage and onto the sleeping through the night stage, which means i can resume being a somewhat normal mother again. somewhat. 

she holds her arm like this below picture all.the.time. she's like what, mom? i'm pretending to carry a tray and it's totally comfortable to bend my arm like this every day. i wanna be a waitress. 

can you handle the cuteness? me either. every day she changes. some days i think she looks like me, some days she looks like my husband, some days she is brody's mini me, and some days still, she is foster's mini me. i need to get my act together and scan some baby pictures of caleb and i, someone remind me of this next week. she smells sweet even when she stinks. which is really hard to do, so i give her a lot of credit for that. i love nuzzling my face into hers. i talk to her in this high pitch, really, really awful voice but she loves it. she loves it so much. she giggles and laughs and coos for me like she does for nobody else. mama is her very favorite and that is the straight up truth. and i should be, no? i am the only one who leaks milk out of my chest at my hair appointment while she doesn't want to take the bottle at home. i am the only one who gets an anxious, achy feeling in my heart when i am gone from her longer than an hour. she needs me. and truth be told, i need her too. 

i can't decide whether the caption for the below picture should be

"praise Him on high. Him up there in Heaven. uh huh. uh huh. amen." 

or

"wasn't me. it was him" said in a deep voice, naturally. 

for some reason i add "a" which is pronounced "uh" onto every nickname i give her. so when i am talking to her and nuzzling my face into hers, i say,  uhpunkingirl, uhpunkinlove, uhlovalove, uhberrygirl. and so on and so forth. she loves it and always will, i'm sure of it.

and for all of you who need a ruffle onesie like story's on your baby, which is all of you, get yours here.

happy three months baby girl. can't wait to cuddle you in the morning.