"hoping for a girl?"
"it's gotta be a girl this time!"
"third times the charm!"
don't be offended if you are one of the hundreds, okay maybe not hundreds, who ask me these questions. i think it is almost innate, people just automatically ask it. i am assuming that moms of two or more girls get these questions and comments about having a boy? but then again, we all know what assuming does to one.
people have genuinely looked at me with this burning desire and passion in their eyes for our family and said, "i hope this one is a girl. for you. i really do." you can already see the sadness that will overcome them if i were tell them this baby was a boy. oh the disappointment. ANOTHER BOY? come on. seriously. how could it be another boy?
it's almost as if boys were these unwanted aliens.
i have had someone say to me, "when do you bring your little girl home?" talking about our adoption.
i say: "our little girl?"
they say: "you're adopting a girl, right?"
i say: "uhh, no. i mean...we could be. it could be a girl or a boy."
they say: "ooohhh."
let me be the first to pull out my soapbox, my pedestal, or my mountain. i'll climb right up on top of that thing, pull up my falling down maternity pants, and clear my throat.
and then? i'll proclaim as loud as i can that: i LOVE being the mom to boys.
i will be THRILLED if this baby growing inside my belly is a boy.
we did not "try" for a girl. we are not placing all our balls in the girl basket. we are not hoping, wishing, and praying that this baby is a girl. by any means.
would we be so happy and excited if this baby was, indeed, a girl? absolutely. the opportunity to parent both boys and a girl would be a gift. but, another boy? we are just as excited. the thought of three boys running around excites my soul. it makes me really, really giddy. when i was a teenager, and i would daydream about my life as a mom, i dreamt of boys. all boys.
i grew up with two sisters. do i need to say more?
boys will never have menstrual cramps. no bras or cleavage, no prom dress shopping, or too short skirts. not to mention no obligation for paying for a wedding? can i get a what what?
bottom line is, this baby is a gift. i would never, in a million years, be upset if this child was a boy.
i would be ecstatic.
the fact that the Lord has blessed us with this little life inside of me is more than enough.
i fully believe that the Lord has created this baby to be just the child that He desires caleb and i to raise.
now, hear me out. i do not think it is wrong to have it be a desire of your heart to raise either a boy or girl. i think the Lord gives of those desires and they are good things. i just don't have a burning desire. i am more focused on praying for this baby to be healthy, rather than praying over what gender he or she will be. that is already determined and perfectly planned for our family. no changing it. no wanting to change it.
we will find out what this baby is in two weeks….
can you handle the suspense?