Monday, October 25

the battle

i waited til this morning to write this because if i wrote it on saturday night i would have written it with tears flowing and gnashing of teeth. now, i can look back and sigh. maybe even half-heartedly smile, when saturday i could hardly see straight.

Photobucket

it was a hard mom day for me. every day is a mom day because it's the never ending career but, some days are a lot harder than others. we're still transitioning into some sort kind of normalcy between moving in, new surroundings, fighting sicknesses and sharing a bedroom. the boys are waking up earlier because brody has been promptly shouting i'm ready to get up mom! at 6:00 when they both are usually 7:30ish risers. it is a rough way to start the day because i go into it knowing that it will probably be all downhill from here. the overtired, runny nose, teething baby is not easy to entertain.

i don't remember all the details as to how my boys spiraled into these sweating, screaming crying, wanting to be held masses. but, i do remember that my boys spiraled into these sweating, screaming crying, wanting to be held masses.

i was trying to juggle holding both of them, prevent their heads from crashing together and maintain my cool, all at once. it was a long time of this. a long of enough time that my head hurt so bad that i wanted to throw up. a long enough time time that my vision was spotted. a long enough time that i called caleb to tell him i really don't like that he has to work saturdays and i really needed him here.

Photobucket

i was quick to become angry at the fact i was alone with two miserable kids. all my friend's husbands were home with them. i was quick to be become angry that foster prevented brody from napping, quick to become angry at brody pushing foster off my lap. he needed me, too.

Photobucket


take a step back, danielle.

11 comments:

  1. i hear ya girl! my 2 are only 18 months apart, so we've got some sort of meltdown just about everyday and my hubs has to work saturdays too!!

    ReplyDelete
  2. I've been there many times - and I only have one! Sometimes it is really a struggle for me to overcome the anger and frustration that come with some seriously long days when you are at home with little ones. My husband does travel for work, but he's usually home on Saturday (a blessing).

    Hope this week is much more peaceful for you and the boys.

    ReplyDelete
  3. totally had those days. it's the worst...but makes you notice the good days even more.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Those are the hardest days.....I feel for you....you are a great mom!!!

    ReplyDelete
  5. This comment has been removed by the author.

    ReplyDelete
  6. oh friend! so sorry... you're so good to love your boys so well and to remember what you need to remember :) thanks for having me over this morning :) love your sweet home! :)

    ReplyDelete
  7. oh I can totally relate, it is hard transitioning boys to share a room! hoping it gets better for you...just keep looking at your amazing kitchen when you are down ;) cause it is totally AMAZING

    ReplyDelete
  8. hey chica... i read this and thought of you :)

    http://littlemissmomma.blogspot.com/2010/10/whats-your-biggest-fear-mine.html

    ReplyDelete
  9. Girl, I can totally sympathize with you! Thank God it's behind you now.

    My husband has to work out of state and is also gone 6 days a week from 5 am - 7 pm. There are days he is home by 5 and home on some Saturdays so I do count my blessings. I've got 3 little ones so I totally understand.

    God is there in our time of need and on those "bad" days, I have to drop to my knees and surrender and he totally restores me.

    Digging your blog,

    Nancy in MA.

    ReplyDelete
  10. Wow...I really needed that post! Thank you so much for putting up the scripture references too...how easy it is to forget where the real answers are when we are having those hard Mommy days!

    ReplyDelete
  11. I know this is pretty late response but this is a great post. Mine is military so he's gone, well, a lot. I had a day a couple days ago that went from bad to worse, they were alll bickering! And when I'd made a delicious dinner he had already eaten, at Red Lobster with the other Drill Sergeants! Lol! My reaction was NOT controlled and unemotional! Since then I've gotten over that but been kinda crabby and really love the verse about though I've got LOTS of words, keeping quiet is the wiser thing to do! Lol! Thank you for your post! Hang in there!

    ReplyDelete